Back to school again! I really dont know whether to be happy or sad or ......... its just that those 3 words "Back to school" dont evoke as much feeling as they used to a few years back. When going back to school was the most bittersweet experience ever. It was great in that you got to meet and hang out with your pals and swap all these exciting stories about what you had been up to during the holidays (Being in an al gurls school these were definately interesting stories - wink!) and basically get back to the warm camaderie with your friends. But that was only the first night, then came the waking up at five and constant hunger (This still remains a mystery because I could eat a whole loaf at breakfast and be hungry less than four hours later!) and the writing of notes which was particularly displeasurable for me due to my short concentration span, and the rules and reading and studying and exams and lack of sleep!!!!
Now am sitting here ruminating on the fact that tomorrow marks the beggining of a new sem for me and all I can think about is that I hope I can get all my work done in time to be home for the christmas holidays. School has become just another cursory experience, not wanting to change it and yet not wanting to be part of it. Another process I must go through, like eating shitting or sleeping.So yeah, I sit here and think to myself, "another semester begins" and nothing really shifts inside of me.